Sex Intermission

Ambery Bowman
6 min readSep 29, 2019

Part I

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So, I’m coming up on my one-year anniversary of practicing abstinence. And I must say it has been one of the most bittersweet experiences in my life. This wasn’t a decision that I found myself excited about. But, I knew this was something I had to do to show God how serious I was about changing my life.

No, I have never been addicted to sex or felt like I was having too much of it. When my relationship with God started maturing, I began to feel convicted whenever I did engage in sex. And I mean every single time. Can you imagine how awkward that is? Especially when you are dating a person and out of nowhere you start feeling like you’re doing something you have no business doing. Maybe part of the problem was me being in a sexual relationship with no commitment. And for the first time in my life, that bothered me. The more I ignored the feeling, the stronger it grew. It ached at me continuously to the point where I couldn’t take it anymore. At that point I realized as I was feeding my flesh, my spirit was dying slowly overtime. It was time for a sex intermission.

I had set several goals for myself this year. The most important ones were to strengthen my relationship with God, fall in love with myself, and stay abstinent for the entire year. I figured that by me taking sex completely off the table that would allow me to not only minimize distractions that…

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Ambery Bowman

Writing, healing, growing…beautifully. Order my poetry books, “To the Woman I am Becoming” and No shade, No tea, just poetry” at Thewomaniambecoming.com